:mornincoffee2: This is exactly how I feel this morning…just wish I drank coffee to give me the perk up that I need.

I thank everyone for their prayers, concerns, e-mails and comments…they mean the world to me. Shawn and I had a much needed talk yesterday…lots of yelling, and all in all a lot of things got off of both of our backs that was really needed. He said he was contemplating leaving me in anger…lack of sleep and what not, and totally didn’t mean it. I told him he can’t just talk to me like that and walk away…but as of right now all is good…with us at least.

As for the pain, I did break down and called my doctor yesterday, and he agreed to put me on Paxil, no questions asked…but I do have to go in to see him in the next two weeks to talk. So I was OK with that.

Now if I can get my kids under control…that would be the best thing, and life would totally be hunky dory. :icon_mad: I feel like they are totally ruling the roost right now…if I try and discipline them they dictate to me and are walking all over me…and if I start yelling, they start yelling back and then we end up in huge screaming battles, and it’s just a total mess. We have tried time outs, we have tried taking things off of them…everything, but nothing seems to work. So yesterday I came up with a set of “Grusofsky House Rules” and if a rule is broken they get one warning…and if it is broken again then Ashton has to write the broken rule 50 times…which he hates doing…and with Faith she will love privileges, as those hit home with her more. I just pray that this works…because I’m at my wits end with both of my children.

I found this site…Our Stick Family over at Jenn’s site today, and couldn’t help but to make a stick family for my family. I’d love to get this for our van window…maybe without the name though!

Does anyone do any market research surveys or what not? I do so many…but haven’t been rewarded yet. My mother was rewarded for hers. So maybe…I’ll just keep watching and waiting.

Hope you all have a very blessed day…and thanks again for all your prayers and concerns, they mean the world to me.

I don’t know what it is…if it’s my hormones in overdrive, or my life just falling apart in front of me…I don’t know. But I’m in such a rut, and all I want to do is cry, cry, cry. :icon_cry: My knee hurts, constantly, my children think they are the parent and think it’s OK to boss me around and dictate what I do for them…NOT! My husband just isn’t there emotionally at all…and to top things off, yesterday he informs me that he’s seriously contemplating leaving me. Yeah…you read that right, total shocker to me as well. I just don’t know what to do…what to say, or how to act, because it completely floored me. When he came home from work last night he slept in Ashton’s bed…didn’t even come into bed with me. So I have no clue what is going through that head of his…at all.

Seems like he doesn’t want to spend any time with me anymore…he spends almost all of his time that he IS home, outside with the neighbors hanging out and doesn’t talk to me at all. I betcha that he couldn’t tell you anything going on in my life right now…because he doesn’t know! I just don’t know what to do…it’s just totally thrown me for a loop, and I don’t know what to do or say about the whole situation…I’m at a loss. :icon_question:

I know that I’ve been moody…and that I’ve got so many other things on my plate with my knee and what not…but I don’t know what to do, I am just playing a big old waiting game, and until the doctor says OK I have to be in this pain. I think it’s totally unacceptable that I’ve been in pain since before my surgery in April until now…and was told that I have to wait SIX MORE weeks until we discuss surgery. So it’s depressing thinking that I may possibly be in pain for six weeks and then if I have the surgery strenuous physical therapy follows that…and having to be dependent on a husband who may not even be there after six weeks…so it’s like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place, big time!

I’ve seriously been considering going back on anti-depressants, but I think is this worth going on them for? I want to conquer this by myself…but I think that my physical health is different than my emotional health, and maybe the anti-depressants will help…but on the other hand I don’t want to become dependent on them…it’s again a no win situation. Maybe I should just try a progesterone cream or something…to see if this is all hormonal or what not. I don’t know.

I’m sorry this is such a downer of a post…I just feel that sometimes if I have more people praying for me, it lifts me back up and makes me feel better…so if you could say a prayer, I’d appreciate it.

…until we blog again…

We awoke this morning to a frightening feeling. As I was getting ready for the kids that I babysit to come, a fire call came in…originally it was just smoke in the area, so Shawn, who had just worked until 3 a.m. didn’t rush to get out of bed. Then the police confirmed that there was fire…on a corner where very good friends of ours live. The kids had since then awaken, and the prayers just wouldn’t stop…we were praying for this family, and praying that it wasn’t there house. But at the same time praying for who’s house it was…that everyone be safe and sound. I listened to Shawn’s fire scanner the entire time. Confirmed structure fire, two story brick house, single family dwelling, everything that was confirming our friends house! :icon_cry: I started the prayer chain…woke my friend Cathy up at 6:30 a.m., called my mom…just got the prayer cycle started. Especially when I heard them on the radio call for search & rescue…because there may be kids inside! :icon_eek:

Well…God answers prayers…big time and fast! It wasn’t our friends house, and thank goodness there wasn’t anyone inside. The homeowners were on vacation…so the house was vacant. From what the fire department could tell, it started in the middle of the night, and was burning all night long. I just got off the phone with my friend who lives close by, and it was scary for her to find out that this was all going on right across the street from her, and she was still in bed sleeping. That would have been scary, for sure! Unfortunately the fire is really bad, and lots of damage, and even more so the family who lived there lost their two pet cats…so it has blessings and tragedy, all at the same time. :icon_confused:

Oh a happier note… :icon_biggrin: Is this not the cutest set you have ever seen!!!! And with these cute punkin smiles to boot! Aren’t they adorable! Susie…you have outdone yourself once again! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I was watching the news the other day, and cannot believe that the two year anniversary of Hurricane Katrina is here already. It seems like it was just not so long ago that we heard on the news the horrifying news of the Hurricane that hit the Gulf Coast and more. The revamping and reconstruction of all the homes that were affected by the storms, I cannot imagine. I am sure that anytime it rains, those affected are terrified. But…everyone must move on, and things need to be rebuilt, and restored. I am sure that Tampa real estate is blessed in so many ways with this. And the people are blessed looking for homes for such wonderful service! Many prayers for any of those affected.

Miss Shannon is in need of a bottle, so I best end this here. Hope you all have a very blessed day.

…until we blog again…